No matter what I do I can't stop thinking.
I remember everything in detail.
The times I've gotten yelled at, punished, and even hit.
I remember everything.
I wish I could forget. I wish i didn't have these dreams.
The words people said. The lies.
Everyone lies to get what they want. It's human. I can't stand liars anymore.
I wanted to escape so many times. I tried drowning. I tried sleeping pills . I just wanted out. I can't stand the words I keep hearing every single day. That I'll never be good enough. I'll be the other person. That someone is out to get me. That I'm going to die alone. I can't stand to hear it anymore. Yet... I'm still here.
I'm trying to protect my heart. I'm doing all I can yet you can't protect yourself from everything. Love is one thing. I guess I could pretend not too. I've tried. I tried to cling onto someone else but it didn't work.
